two seconds
tic tac
it isn't that much

two seconds
tic tac
can just be enough

two seconds
tic tac
what's there not to see?

two seconds
tic tac
close to being, you and me

two seconds
tic tac
what's there not to notice?

two seconds
tic tac
time going, just to show us

two seconds
tic tac
we're all lost in lust

two seconds
tic tac
soon enough, it's too much

the fire within me vanishes in you

only for a reason..

you're always pleased when I'm on my knees

but then again

every now and then

the fire within you vanishes in me.

you know,
once upon a time I was an existentialist
now, I don't really care so much
we're here, I'm here
we're building bridges where walls used to grow
we're rising sunshines where clouds used to blow
when reading poetry I stand still
and wonder
have we gone too far?
have we reached a limit?
will we ever find
the way to to be in it?
somedays I wake up
and look through my window
a cat on a porch
a slight window flow
all I can do is wonder
have we gone too far?
have we reached a limit?
will we ever find
the way to to be in it?

the fool, the idiot and the brave..

soon arriving in the nearest airport

Set status here

when my skin used to touch yours there was a rush.. not a fever, not a slight imbalance, just a heart pumping, rushing.. it's been a long time.. want it once more!

"I'm still a virgin and my pregnancy just came in by accident"

pergunto-me..

exhausted!

one night stands and the swine flu

phone ringing... unknown number...

she: hello?
him: hi! how are you?
she: I'm good.. who's there?
him: hi, sorry.. it's me, Dough!
she: Hi Dough! what's up? didn't know you had my number..
him: oh and I didn't! took me a while and a lot of asking to figure it out.. you have too many names and it makes it hard to track you.
she: oh yeah..sorry about it.
him: how are you doing? are you feeling well? were you just sleeping? your voice sounds awful.
she: no, I'm good.. just recovering from the wild holidays so far.
him: ah ok.. but are you really feeling ok?
she: yeah, friends visiting.. couldn't be better, having a great time..
him: so you're not sick, no flu symptoms?
she: no..why do you ask?
him: well.. can you still remember we kissed?
she: yes, of course. my memory is not that short.
him: oh good.. well, the thing is.... (silence) .. do you remember Johnny?
she: yes.. why?
him: well, after we got back from the concert.. well.. hmmm..sure you're feeling well?
she: yes, I've already told you so.
him: oh ok.. good to hear it.. I was actually calling to know about that.
she: ok.. but you still haven't explained yourself properly..
him: oh, sorry! the thing is that Johnny got the swine flu at the concert.. he was diagnosed after we left town..
she: serious? is he ok? is he in the hospital?
him: no, he's good.. and I'm also ok.. doing much better now.. (silence)
she: so..wait a minute.. you also got the flu?
him: well (silence) ... that's what I was trying to explain you.. I got it and I was scared you got it as well from me..
she: oh shit! (silence) no, I'm actually ok.. but how are you?
him: taking the meds! waiting for it to go away, but much better now.. I think I was even worst after I started taking the meds but now it's much much better.
she: oh ok! good to know.
him: so..if anything happens could you let me know? I felt terrible just to think I got you sick...
(silence)
she: no, I'm good and it's been a few days now.. so, no worries.
him: ok, perfect!
she: yeah!
him: well.. (silence).. wish you a great summer.
she: hope you feel better and can still enjoy your holidays as well..
him: thanks, I hope so.
she: well, have a great time 'til you have to go back.
him: thanks! I'll try! hug and kisses.
she: kisses back.

and they hung up.

"you're gone
you're out of the rails
you came to a point you don't understand
you're lost
and drifting away
too far from the shore where you used to play

but there's a spark in the eye
there's a spark in the eye
don't loose the spark in the eye

when you feel that nobody feels your cup
a cup without a bottom or a top
when nothing and nobody fills you up
when you feel like nothing's ever good enough

too hot
and out of control
there's fire inside the eye of the soul
too kind
for someone so cold
still got the art to make it alone
too much
to get all you want
when all that you need is always beyond
too gone, too much, too soon
fits too well with you, sentimental fool

there's a spark in the eye
I see the spark in your eye
don't loose the spark in the eye

when you feel that nobody feels your cup
a cup without a bottom or a top
when nothing and nobody fills you up
when you feel like nothing's ever good enough"

by Electric Willow

she is not your ego booster!

kids and one night stands do not fit together

Him: Wait.
Her: oh.. what's wrong?
Him: Nothing, really.. I was just wondering how you feel about children..
Her: About children? Why are you asking now? what is it?
Him: well, how do you feel about having kids..
Her: you mean.. NOW?
Him: well.. I mean.. we're here.. having fun.. what if something goes wrong?
Her: oh I see.. afraid of being a parent?
Him: of course. I do not wish children.
Her: hmm.. I don't intend to get pregnant of you, if that is your question..
Him: well, I can understand that.. but what if something goes wrong?
Her: if something goes wrong I can be a single parent. or I can give the child for adoption.
Him: WOW! so you wouldn't even consider abortion?
Her: maybe..why?
Him: oh (sigh).. what a relief. we can get back to the fun..
Her: hahahahahahahaha can't believe you actually needed to talk about this NOW.
Him: I don't really like surprises regarding this issue.
Her: Ok. can I call you daddy for the rest of the night?
Him: hmm..

Wonderlust 'Queen'

"Back in the day yo as we learned

A man was not considered to be
Considered to be fully grown
Has he not gona beyond the hills
Has he not crossed the 7 seas
Yeah, 7 seas at least!

Now all them jokers kept around
Just like the scarecrows in hometown
Yeah, scarecrows in hometown
From screen to screen they're travelin'
But I'm a wonderlust king

I stay on the run
Let me out
Let me be gone
In the world's beat up road sign
I saw new history of time...
New history of time!!!

Through Siberian woods
Breaking up their neck

Chinese moving in building discoteques

Homemade sex toys and whatnot
Yeah, and why not?
Well at least it's something different
From what they got in every other airport

Ja ne evrei, no koje-chto pohozge
sovrat ne dast ni Yura ni Seryozga!
Simple because I'm not a total gadjo
Da ja shut, ja tziratch, nu tak stozge?

I traveled the world
Looking for understanding
Of the times that we live in
Hunting and gathering first hand information
Challenging definitions of sin

I traveled the world
Looking for lovers
Of the ultimate beauty
But never settled in
I'm Wonderlust King!

And presidents
And billionaires
And generals
They'll never know
What I have owned!
What I have owned...
I'm a wonderlust king!"

by Gogol Bordello

coisas tão simples

"Satellites gone
Up to the skies
Thing like that drives me
Out of my mind"

Lou Reed

done!

satélites..
existem pessoas que guardam outros à sua volta como se de satélites se tratassem.. deixam-nos andar em órbita continuamente, até deles quererem algo.. quando não querem, bem.. os satélites continuam em órbita para o caso de.. para o caso de se voltar a querer.

The Mule

"How many times must you call me in the morning
Before I wake up
How many times must I look at other girls
Before we break up
And how many times must I criticise every single thing that you do
Before you,
Before you let me know
Before you let me go
You really should've known

That I'm a no good gambling man with the wrong hand
Who's been hurt so many times
Why don't you look him in the eye
Oh you won't see nothing at all

How many times must I stumble in drunk
Before you scold me
Why is it you have to turn out all the lights
Before you hold me
And how many years of fears and falls, that broke my balls
Well I guess you never told me...

But before you let me know
Before you let me go
You really shouldn't know

That I'm a no-good, used-up, bruised and fucked-up boy
Who gets beat up just by looking at you
I'm a lonely soul, lost every single thing I've ever did own
But I never owned you
Go on and look him in the eye
Oh you just might see him cry
Oh you just might see him smile...

One more drink and I'll be fine
One more girl to take you off my mind
One more girl and I'll be fine
One more drink to take you off my mind
One more drink and I'll be fine
One more girl to take you off my mind
One more drink and I'll be fine
One more girl to take you off my mind
One more drink and I'll be fine
One more girl to take you off my mind"

by Magic Numbers

Statistics

Study 1

The present study aims to analyse the relationship between him and her.
We expect Feeling to be a predictor of the differences between both groups (him and her) regarding the Relation.
To test the hypothesized relations between the variables, we conducted a t test.

Independent variable: Feeling
Dependent variable: Relation: group 1: him; group 2:her.

The results provide evidence for our main hypothesis.
Group 1 (him) differs significantly from group 2 (her) regarding the Feeling variable.
To be more precise, Group 1 (him) does not hold the Feeling as an important factor in the Relation, and Group 2 (her) holds Feeling as a very strong and relevant factor for the Relation.

Study 2

To better understand the pattern of relations found in Study 1, another study was conducted. This time we hypothesized that the relationship between Feeling and Relation is not linear and that there is a possible mediator of this relationship. Therefore, we included a new variable in the present study: Circumstances.
To analyse if the levels of Circumstances can be a possible mediator of the relation between Feeling and Relation, we conducted a Regression analysis.
Following the procedure recommended by Baron and Kenny (1989), we conducted a regression analysis, first with Circumstances as the only predictor. This analysis shows us that Circumstances are a significant predictor of Relation.
When we include Feeling as a second predictor on the regression analysis, the significant association between Circumstances and Relation is still significant, meaning that our hypothesis was not supported and that Feeling is a very strong predictor of Relation.
Circumstances presents an almost non-significant association with Relation, leading us to exclude the hypothesis that Circumstances are a mediator of the association between Feeling and Relation.

Summarizing, Feeling is definitely an important predictor of Relation and Circumstances are not so relevant for the prediction of the Relation.

natural born self-sabotager

no ruído mordaz que me rodeia, perco-me
na ânsia de ser ou estar ofusco-me
na vontade de ampliar reduzo-me
na certeza de pouco ter adormeço
onde vou? para quem?
no fim da noite ou na entrada do dia
repete-se o sentir. só.
e a rotina dá-lhe a volta
para disso me esquecer
até à hora tardia em que ninguém
existe com quem partilhar as palavras,
o abraço.

a never fitting shadow

blowing our mind
making us wonder
breaking long lost lasting walls
would you stay?

d0 or do not
there is no trying

a never fitting shadow

was I with you?
did I touch you?
did I feel your breath?
were you close?

not a body in a vacuum
if you do not want me,
do not ask me for parts
a me, an us, a we.

the never fitting shadow

breaking walls
holding silences
abandoned in my feeling
rebuilding fortresses

the never fitting shadow.