your words reach my deepest

your silence is daunting

but words are just words
spelled on a pad of nothing


your hugs reach my deepest
your absence fills my days
and hugs every year or so
are not hugs just daze


your spirits reach my mind
your sickness rocks my heart
and spirits may be liquors
my heart is all i got


your unsaid is my suffer
your undone is my pain
your presence is my death
your silence inhumane


your words reach my deepest
my doubts fill my guts
the longing always there
the waiting hurts too much

one day you touch me
another i move on
but then my only thought
forsaken or destruction


your recklessness is staggering
your contempt too much to bear
round and round we go. 
remember i won't be there


no pain equals the love 
of loving not intended
no void can fill above
what's done and been offended